Sigh..i really very fan leix..i really don noe wad i really wan..i miss him very much..but i noe i cant miss him and think of him le..cos is i choose to let go of him de..but my mind keep on think wad he's doing now..he wif who now..he everyday msg who and talk to who on phone..i noe he now hate me alot..he say he don wan to see my msg seriously..he even told me tat even if he still love me,he oso wont patch wif me le..but i can understand how he feel..cos i hurt him too deep le..but i really don mean to hurt him de..i wan to be wif him back..i really think of going back to him de..but he too flirt le..i scared he will be like last time hurt me oso..i noe im selfish..but im really very scared..but he don noe wad im thinking and worried abt..he say he love me alot..and i hurt him too deep till he wont trust love anymore..but afew days later he still can hong gals in fb..sigh!!even if i love him alot..i oso don dare to go back to him..is like being wif him very insecure..but don noe y i jiu shi like to being wif him de feeling..my mind really cant stop thinking of him..but all tis word i hv to keep inside my heart..i actually got the chong dong to tell him i still love him..i wan to be wif him and married to him de..i still wan to hv our shantel ong lei lei de..but i noe i now don hv the right to tell him le..or maybe i forever hv to keep inside my heart le..sometimes i really wish he can come and find me,hug me tight tight and say he love me..but i noe now impossible le..he not like last time le..lastly i wan to say i really love u..i really do..i really hope we can be back together..but i noe he wont see my blog le..so he wont noe wad im thinking and writting de..